Life Update

The last week has pretty much been hell for me. Last Monday I lost my cat Gracie, my dainty little calico. The best we're told is that it was a heart issue she's had since birth. I had some similar issues with another cat of mine, Nomad, who Gracie actually helped me deal with the death of. Unlike with Nomad's death this depression is more of a numb feeling rather than intense sadness. I've been crying off and on but otherwise all my emotions are muted.

I'm writing this today because I'm feeling better and I had the fortune of meeting a new friend, a grey and white tuxedo boy I've named Domino adopted from the local rescue for Christmas. Things still hurt but it's slowly becoming easier to take care of myself and my hygiene with him around. I become very attached to my pets so if anything happens to them everything becomes so much harder for me.

Besides my cats, things are still tense. We moved into a shed next to my sisters months ago. It has wifi and other things but no running water or insulation. It's been a struggle for everyone to adjust especially since the price estimate for our modular home was much higher than we were expecting when selling our old house. So showering, cooking, even staying warm is much more of a challenge down here.

My dad's held up for most of the time but now he's throwing a tantrum because my sisters way of celebrating Christmas isn't the way he celebrates. So yeah, gotta deal with a grown ass toddler of a man in these conditions.

I'm trying not to let any of this ruin my Christmas but it's very difficult. I just hope I can spend time with my family without my dad throwing things and yelling. I'm still hanging in there.

~ Cyber